Oh Consistency, Thou Art a Fickle Bitch
I love me a good self development book. Just having it on my shelf with an un-cracked spine makes me feel like I am more accomplished, as if my soul is richer by its mere presence. But there is one thing I have found in basically all the books I have read that brings me…
No Excuses. You matter.
Don’t you be rolling your eyes at me queen… I don’t care what your excuses are, how bad you may or may not have fucked up, or what horrendous shit has happened in your life. You Matter. I don’t care if you believe that deep down you are a teeming black ball of Venom type…
Depression is a Liar
As I was doom scrolling on IG recently I came across a post that the incredible Viola Davis had shared all about depression and how we can self-gaslight when depression hits and my god I needed that because I’m certainly going through a period of depression at the minute and sometimes you need that outside…
Creativity for Creativity Sake
As far back as I can remember, I’ve always been creative. Whether it was wanting craft kits for Christmas, putting shows on in the living room or letting my imagination create a better place to live than the war of home. But then, aren’t we all? Really deep down isn’t everyone creative? OK maybe not…
Activated Authors Interview
This is just a short lil’ bonus post to say that I had the honour of being interviewed by Daniel Willcocks on the Activated Authors podcast earlier this year and the episode is now live! We spoke all about recovery, mental health struggles, creativity as medicine and the UK North/South divide… If you should be…
Update A.K.A Where I’ve Been
I have found creating any kind of content very difficult this year and there are two main reasons for this; firstly I use my life in my art, however that presents itself whether in poem or paint, prose or a post and the truth is much of what has been happening this year involves other…
Writers For Ukraine – The 1 Million Word Challenge
The following post is NOT SPONSORED but I wanted to share the Activated Authors charity drive in aid of Ukraine As you know, there has been no secret made about the atrocities currently being undertaken on the European country of Ukraine. Since its unfounded invasion of Ukraine on Thursday 24th February, things are steadily getting…
Perfection is the Enemy
So last year happened. Apparently. It both felt like 347 years and that it never existed, but now it is over and done, and by the mere fact that the earth revolves and we mark that with the label time, it is now 2022. I find it strange that I am so affected by the…
Mr Sandman, Bring Me a Dream…
Thursday 20th January I slept like a baby last night. And by that I mean I was awake until way past the time I should have been, woke up every hour and, was unreasonably hungry at 4 am. Since I last wrote, I have not had a day go ‘to the plan’ and today was…
Highway to the Beta Zone
Tuesday 18th January 2022 Happy New Year! What’s that? Yes, yes I am aware that is indeed not the first of January and we are marching in the middle of the month but as it turns out, the universe had conspired to prevent me from wishing you the compliments of the season before now (I…
NaNoWrimo Day 2
In today’s vlog, (which was filmed yesterday on day 2 of NaNo but goes up today on day 3 of NaNo. That makes my eyes cross a bit when I think about it) I continue on my 2021 Nano Journey, hit delirious levels of tired and mildly resent yoga..
I’m on the YouTubes
So this year I had decided I wanted to start creating video content for YouTube but couldn’t quite figure out what to start with or how to start. After much deliberation (for deliberation, please read overthinking to a commical extent) I realised something; NO ONE CARES. I don’t mean this in a self-deprecating way just…
“What the hell is NaNo anyway?“
An honest account of my first Nano, on the eve of my second… This time last year I had barely a clue what “NaNoWriMo” was (I think I’d heard about it in passing about ten years ago and laughed at the idea) let alone the “indie writing” community. I certainly didn’t understand the whirlwind I…
How Can I Create with Debilitating Mental Illness?
It’s a big question, it’s a question I found myself typing into google (because if google doesn’t know who does?) about 5/6 years ago in a really dark place of total and utter despair and I mean, end of the line darkness. I had been working on being an actor and performing since I was…
When Winter Comes: A Review
One of the things I wanted to when I started this blog, was book reviews, it has taken me some time to get around to it because… well, I’m me and as I have clearly stated I’m a warming trash can fire on tepid evening. The first book I offer up is the deliciously dark,…
Mental Health Judgements and Stigma’s that I have experienced –
Part 1 “You Talk Too Much” A few years back my mental health was in an OK spot but I could feel that it was declining and so I decided to go to my GP, I was at the time un-medicated – still having the idea in my head that medication for mental illnesses was…
Tuesday 24th August – 2:30am…
Well, it’s 2:30 am and I am wide-awake which can only mean one thing, my good friend insomnia is back, I didn’t miss her. Today’s been a little weird, it’s been my first full day back at my laptop since having time off and I feel like I just face planted into work and my…
Previously in the Life of a Mastress…
Ahhhhhh insomnia, thought art a festering boil on the arse of decency. So, I wrote a post on my main blog page a little while ago about the fact that I often feel better the day after an insomniac filled night. I hold with that all though now I know why it’s a little crappy,…
Mental Space and Letting Myself Play
My son is away this week with his dad, what this means for me is I am child free for 9 days. 9 WHOLE DAYS. I have the privilege of having this time at least once a year and specifically during the summer holidays. I can always tell when the time is approaching because my…
Art, Diary, Poems and Housekeeping
This week has been very busy and at times my brain has been making me revisit old trauma’s and my EID (Emotional Intensity Disorder) has also been having a lot of fun with my tear ducts – none of this is said to garner any other reaction than (hopefully) an understanding that this week’s post…
What just happened?
Do you ever have one of those weeks were you just think to yourself, what in the name of the ever loving Goddess Christina Aguilera, just happened? Like, you know it happened because you just lived through it, stumbled through, nay crawled on your belly over shark infested barbed wire (it’s a thing) but you…
Parenting- Being Good Enough is Good Enough
I’m so tired. Like all the time, my body, my mind, my soul. Mostly my joints and brain though to be fair. I’m a single parent and it is much. Soooo very much. A little background in case you missed my earlier posts on ‘Ten Things They Don’t tell You About Being a Parent’ and…
Trying Out Mental Illness ‘Cures’
DISCLAIMER: THIS POST IS IN FUN, I AM STILL NOT A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL AND IF SOME OR ANY OF THE THINGS BELOW WORK FOR YOU THEN THAT’S FANTASTIC, YAY. It’s fathers day here in the UK and this day can sometimes be a little difficult for me due to the fact that my father is,…
10 Things My Mental Illnesses Have Given Me (That I’m Happy About)
DISCLAIMER: I am in NO WAY minimising the very real situation of living with these disorders and illnesses. I wanted to see if I could find ten things that I, personally, get through having these diagnosis’ as a thought experiment to help me through when things get bad. It is not me saying ‘just think…
If You Could Have Any Superpower, What Would it Be?
T/W: REFERENCE TO ABUSE (NON GRAPHIC) We’ve all played this game, right? In the playground with out friends, thinking over all the powers and carefully weighing each one as if we were to be actually granted our choice? Oh, who am I kidding? ‘Played’ like I don’t still consider the merits of flight vs speed,…
Why Do I Feel Better When My Insomnia Is Flaring?
DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT NOW, NOR HAVE I EVER BEEN A MEDICAL PROFESSIONAL IN ANY FIELD (UNLESS YOU COUNT FINAL FANTASY 7, WHICH -SPOILER – YOU SHOULDN’T) NOR AM I TRAINING TO BE ONE OR HAVE ANY INTENTION TO DO SO IN THE FUTURE. THIS ARTICLE IS BASED OFF MY EXPERIENCE AND MY GOOGLE HISTORY…
Easing of Measures, Rising of Anxiety
I have been thinking a lot about this recently, if you follow me on IG *cough* @mastressofnone *cough* you will have seen me discuss this on my stories. My mental health has felt very, to use the technical term, recognised in the medical community – squiffy. That is to say one minute, I’m fine, I’m…
What I’ve Learnt so far… Mumming. pt.1
I have been a parent now for just over 10 years now so, as I’m sure you can imagine I am a mother fudging expert on parenting, I should have a honouree degree on baking babies and knowing all there is to know about, not just my child but all the children of the world……
10 REASONS YOU ARE NOT A FEMINIST
DISCLAIMER: The following article is representative of my opinion regarding feminism and human decency. I in no way claim to be the feminist police nor am I the expert, authority or monolith on all things. If it feels like I’m angry at any point during this article, it’s because I am. Oooooooooooo, I know right?!…
On… Sexual Violence and Misrepresentation
TRIGGER WARNING: VIOLENCE, SEXUAL VIOLENCE AND SELF INJURY. I have been thinking about trauma a lot lately, my own in particular, but also on a wider scale. I remember once disclosing to an ex that I had CPTSD (Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). He was a soldier and, even though he knew of my multiple…
An Ode to my Mother
This is my Mum: Or as I still call her, with no shame and perhaps a smidge of arrested development, Mummy. As its Mothers Day here in the UK, I want to introduce you to her because she is one of life’s unsung heroes, well, I want to sing. I saw this quote on a…
10 Things They Don’t Tell You About Being A Parent
“Oh, my goodness! It’s the best. Being a parent is such a blessing. You’re going to love it!” “Get your sleep while the baby does!” “Make sure to enjoy every minute, they grow so fast and you can’t get that time back!” Any of this sound familiar? Well, if you’re a parent—or an expecting parent—I…
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